Today is the second anniversary of my blog.  My first blog entry was called “Hello!”  Today’s entry doesn’t have a title yet because I woke up in a fowl mood with no clue what to write to mark this important occasion.  Maybe it should be called “Grumpy Pants.”

It’s ironic to wake up on the second anniversary of the project that has completely transformed my life and feel so crappy.  I actually said to Mike this morning, “I can’t believe it’s my blog anniversary and I’m in such a bad mood.”  Maybe the title should be “Blah” or “It’s My Party And I’ll Cry If I Want To.”

I had one unpleasant and reoccurring dream all night long – that we were late for soccer – and then thanks to Harry’s 4:00 a.m. romp in the backyard, I tossed and turned until 6:20 a.m. when Riley woke up moaning.   He fell back asleep in my bed (yes, my bed), but only after crying and kicking me (yes, kicking me) because I didn’t know exactly how he wanted the pillows arranged.  As it turns out, it didn’t matter because when he finally stopped crying, he decided to use me as a pillow.  When Dylan woke up twenty minutes later, I was relieved to get out of bed.  Maybe the title should be “The Dark Side (And Dark Circles) Of Unintended Co-Sleeping.”

Before we left for soccer, Riley had a poop accident.  Yesterday, he had a pee accident on the carpet (yes, the carpet), a pee accident on Mike (yes, Mike), and a poop accident in the pool (yes, the pool), and earlier in the week, he peed on the couch (yes, the couch).  The accumulation of these accidents is beginning to take its toll.  Maybe the title should be “Back To Diapers We Go!”

When we finally got to soccer (early, by the way), I realized the kids weren’t supposed to wear cleats because it was indoor soccer and the cleats would mess up the gym floor.  Oops.  Dylan’s sneakers happened to be in the car, but Riley’s were at home.  He played in his Crocs until Mike brought his sneakers, but by then his game was over.  He didn’t mind the shoe predicament, but I had an overwhelming feeling that the day was going to be filled with blunders.  Maybe the title should be “Close But No Cigar.”

Mike went straight to the office after soccer and the boys and I made our way home to bicker over whether to watch Thomas The Train or Transformers.  The sink was full of dishes, the laundry situation was the usual – there was way too much of it – and the house was generally a mess.  Then, a few minutes after the boys got in the pool, it began to thunder.  Maybe the title should be “I Give Up.”

And then something happened.  I spotted this on the shelf in the kitchen:

JT is Mike’s nickname for me, and RM, I realized after a few seconds, was for Runaway Mama.

Inside the envelope was this card:

Look at that happy penguin leaping into the unknown!  That’s me!

Inside, it said:

Maybe the title should be “Game Changer.”  Or, “I Have The Best Husband On The Planet.”

Early on, I wrote a blog post called Lucky after a bird pooped on my head through the sunroof of my car (this really happened).  The post was about how luck exists outside of our actions.  Finding a twenty-dollar bill in a Red Lobster parking lot (this really happened, too) is lucky, but starting this blog, developing a passion and a talent for writing, and a having a joyful way of expressing myself didn’t happen because of luck.  Rather, it’s been the result of hard work, determination, commitment, and a belief that if I leaped – like that penguin – a net would appear.  No, I’m not lucky.  I’m fortunate.  Maybe the title should be “Lucky Fortunate Duck Penguin.”

During my last session with my life coach, Lauree, I told her how grateful I was for the blog, for having this journal of my life for my children and me, and for having the discipline to practice the art of writing every day.  I was grateful to have discovered that underneath all of my layers, I was a writer.  I told her, “I’m fortunate to be a writer.  Not everyone writes.  I do, and I’m grateful.”

She asked me if I’d thanked myself.”  “What do you mean?” I asked, to which she replied, “How would you say thank you to yourself?”  I had no idea, so we decided writing a thank you letter to myself would be a perfect homework assignment for our next session.  Maybe the title should be “Speechless Writer.”

Dear Jen,

Thank you for getting off the couch.  Thank you for being honest.  Thank you for taking a risk.  Thank you for giving a voice to all of the Mamas inside you.  Thank you for writing.  Every day.   



The letter was originally much longer, so either I edited it to death or realized saying thank you didn’t have to be so complicated.  Maybe the title should be “The Overthinker.”

As this post comes to a close, I can’t help but think how similar motherhood and writing are.  Some days are easy and some days are hard (like today), but you have to keep going, because it’s in the depths of the challenges that inspiration – and the net – inevitably appear.

Thanks for reading.  Thanks for laughing.  Thanks for listening.  Thanks for sharing.  Thanks for caring.

And the perfect title has emerged.  “Thanks.”


Filed under luck, motherhood

6 responses to “Untitled

  1. Karen

    Congratulations on 2 years!! We love you, m,k,s,s


  2. benae

    Congratulations Jen!!! Happy 2 year anniversary!!


  3. Lyla

    Happy anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!


  4. Jamie

    Congratulations! I so enjoy each and every one of your blog posts. I look forward to them every day.


  5. Dani P ;-)

    I really enjoy your blog posts and HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!


  6. Happy Blog-iversary! That card is adorbs.


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